Beginnings

This afternoon I was invited to hear the heartbeat of Christie & Kent's baby. I tried real hard to hold back the tears. My baby's having a baby!! The heartbeat was real strong and the look in Kent's eyes was shear amazement -- there's a living being in there!

Christie is doing well and being the methodical person she is, brought along a list of questions. Geez, how did she get to be so smart?? Both of my pregnancies were so different, as I wasn't married for either of them, and I couldn't enjoy those precious moments in the same way that she and Kent are.

Afterward I stopped at the library for their annual book sale -- 5 books for $1.00! Now, that's the kind of shopping I can afford. I got a couple of books and some lullaby CD's for the baby. I'm already feeling all grandmotherly and gooshy. Will this chapter of grandparenting be different than with Manny & CeCe? I certainly learned alot about love by being involved in their lives. Not having a grandparent to pattern after I just cared for Manny & CeCe as though they were my own; Carrie didn't seem to mind, and perhaps was relieved at times to have another 'parent' to assist her. This child's circumstances are different -- what will my place be? Will I measure up to it? One thing's for sure, Christie will let me know.